Have you ever gazed upon calm waters
and wondered what it would be like to slowly slip beneath its surface,
never to be seen nor heard from again?

I have not
These days, I imagine that what I am feeling is a little something like that
Not precisely drowning
I welcome this feeling
No panic
Pain. A much desired, needed pain.
A bearable pain.

Even as I amble about
I feel lifeless
What tendrils of motivation I had
have long since begun to dissipate

Jeez
I just want it to be over
What the hell ever happened to peace
Tranquility?
How far must I search to find it?
I can't look any longer.
These eyes are useless.
See nothing

The words cloud nine somehow make me think of Nimbus. All of you out there who are familiar with the classic anime Dragonball know what that is.

Anywho, aside from my genuine trip to Cloud Nine. I am pretty good. If not a little nostalgic these days.

Gackt. The oh so handsome and oh so talented Gackt-chama. Anyone know what is new with him?

I have had an interesting week.  Done several things that manage to bring a smile to my face even today.

My departure~

girl, hey you go girl! Don't i love that song. Go EE HYORIshi!!

hmm.. i seem to have made it past my trials and tribulations to the long awaited college. Gee.. how do i feel about that?.. welll.. girl, hey you go girl. i like that that that girl lemme see you bring it back back back girl! OK!

College life: outside of class- fabulous!

College life:  inside of class- horrendous!

Gee.. i don't think i am cut out for college anymore than i was cut out for High School.

OK!!

CRAZY NIGHTS THAT'S THE LIFE LET ME TAKE YOU HOME TONIGHT!

CRAZY LIFE IT'S ALRIGHT, HEY GIRL PARTY TONIGHT!!

AND THEN THE OH SO HOT ASIAN WALKS BY ME AGAIN.. GOODNESS GRACIOUS, SHOOT ME NOW~